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Sunday, December 27, 2009Y
It has been a while, but I gotta let out what has been on mind..

I'm so pissed at the fact that my feelings for him goes back and forth. It's really annoying! I mean why do I like him? Is it because I know that he won't hurt like others have and that he love me for who I am? I don't know! But then, it feels like I'm desperate for him, for which I am not...I want him, but I can't. It depends if he feels the same way like I do. I've dated guys that liked me back, but they liked me first. But, honestly, to me,this is kind of different to what I had expected. He seems to be more independent. Usually when I talk to a guy, I know they're interesting, but when I talk to him, it feels different. I guess I have got to get used to him right? I mean, not all guys are the same.I may know I'm too young to know and care about this, but I can't help it.!Everybody has those times right? When you have no Idea what's on your mind, whatsoever. I don't know what to do anymore. I get emotional (because of him) because you know why? In my mind, I always say to myself, 'I think he doesn't like me. Is it because I'm not interesting? Or is it because of...age difference?'' I don't know. Kinda silly isn't?





Anyway, on the positive side of this, he makes happy, really happy. I love it when he starts the conversation on msn - shows that he really wants to talk me! (Well, that's how I would think of it - wouldn't know how he would).

He also makes me smile right in front of the computer...how embarrassing is that! I remember that day when I met him again after 1-2 years, my heart dropped to the bottom of my stomach. To me, it was definitely a crush. The funny thing is, my brother caught him staring at me the for more than 3 seconds( believe me, he did quite a few times, haha). Oh, I gushed when my brother told me - and my brother thought I was weirdddd! Well, who wouldn't think I'm weird? 'Cause I am. 



This will be referred to him.

You may not read what I am going to type down write now, but what I want to say that,

I really like you a lot (With the initials A.L). I don't know if you would feel the same, but I hope you do. I have this good feeling that I know, you and I would work this relationship out pretty well. That's how I feel about it. But the thing is, I don't want anything to come between right now. I don't think we're ready as we're still young and I would know that you and I wouldn't know what to do. If only I had the guts to say this to you right now....

There a things I want to let you know why I started liking you at that time:
1. You're sweet
2. Whenever you talk to me, I feel happy
3. That time when you came to me and started talking to me, I was saying to myself, 'Yes, he's finally talking to me). I was waiting for you to make the first move, haha =_=.
4. You're a lovely and kind person
5. There's something unique about you. I'm following my heart - not my head.
6. I can't stop thinking about you everyday and night.
7. And one last thing is that......I really really like you!

I hope you understand why I have these feelings for you and that you would not think this is a joke, because it's not.

Well, that's all I've got to say now. Bye!


I wonder - if he ever was thinking about me, if he ever wanted to say something but couldn't. But most of all, if he ever would fall for me. - Quoted by Me. (No copyright infringement intended).

Love, Kim.

ends at 2:54 PM